Day 1 Detox : Monday Monday..

So some may say... chosing this day, a holiday ... to start a cleanse is not a good idea. But for me, when I get the urge to do something. It has to be in that moment, and in that moment only ! :o So the idea came upon me in a wake up call yesterday, as I already told you in the first post. So today it's no games. I'm all in. I even decided yesterday to 'basically' begin then. I did finish a glass of wine I had left though. So that being the only thing that wasn't true to what this cleanse will be from here on out. So this is the official day 1. And I'm excited. I'm excited to get my glow back. Cause I have truly just been fading so far away from that. It's not just about the food part of this cleanse. For me letting go of those 'comfort foods' is letting go of certian emotions that come with it. When I say comfort food I don't mean fast food or junk. I truly don't eat 'bad' ever. However I do eat sometimes, too much of a good thing. And drink to much wine, etc. Just been over indulging big time. And thankfully, I had a realization, life can't be lived like this daily. I'm missing out on something. No, I don't know yet, what that is for me. But I've lost a certain fullfilment in my past days. As well as an urgency and excitement to get up. It's always.... mehhh. I'm going to the gym. It's not exciting. It doesn't make me happy going there. I literally hate working out. I do feel so much better afterwards- but getting through workouts is HARD FOR ME. Like super hard. But that's because I hadn't been seeing the big picture. And I take that negative energy with me there and leave with it. And it's all gotta change.

-I need to see the gym as a place I am happy to go. First off cause I can pay for it, and it's a luxury. To have a sauna, a nice clean place to work out, with AC on hot days. That in itself should be enough to put a little oomf in my step. 
-2nd of all. I've been doing the same ole thing there. I used to like to switch up my workouts. 15 m here, 15 min there, etc. Lately, I had just been staying on 1 machine. Bleh. Boring. Plus we have all these classes there I'd love to take. I'm not present on machines. I actually feel, when I leave the gym, that I'm just waking up. I watch tv to distract me and listen to music! Yowza. Today I rehearsed lines for an audition I have tomorrow. Now that was good! Cause I really feel like I know my lines now, and the workout went by very quickly!

Anyway. back to the detox part of today. 

I've been a bit ravenous for food. So I haven't been holding myself back on anything.

If I want to have a raw cracker, or salad or fruit or nuts. I'm letting it happen. Although I did

sort of lay out a structure of how I will need to be eating, I'm only going to implement that on days I work. Since I'm off today and tomorrow. It's  a bit harder to keep a structure. Still of course, keeping it raw! Just a little out of wack. 

For breakfast- (on the way to grocery store. )

-1/4 cup mix raw nuts & a chia bar & iced almond milk latte (Yes I know. This is the only thing I will continue to keep that should be nixed. No can do. I love my coffee :)

Snack- Left over small mixed salad from work I took home for free.

Lunch- Raw kale salad, with kim chee, avocado & seaweed

Snack- Juice

Snack- 2 raw buckwheat crackers with kim chee and 'cheeze'

Snack- (During movie were going to see) Raw kale chips

Dinner- Raw 'zoodles' with sauce & walnut 'meat'

So what I mean by structure. Which I'll totally follow tomorrow. I just didn't want to waste the free salads I got last night. And I'm not going to see a movie or anything. We may go out to eat at a raw restaurant, which would be sooo yum and awesome. But we'll see.

Breakfast- Smoothie

Snack- juice

Lunch- Juice

Snack- fruit & nuts

Dinner- Raw meal

This ^ is how I want my outline to be for everyday. But if I add a couple things in there, then I do. As long as it's raw it's okay. I imagine the first few days of this I'll be hungrier. But I need some time to adjust to eating less. Which is one of my main problems :/ Meh. I eat faster and more then my boyfriend. I am trying to eat like 'a lady' haha. I'm looking forward to the end result of this cleanse. I really want to achieve a different mind set, and of course lose some weight and gain my glow back. I want my sparkly self back. And energy, etc. I can't wait to share with you my journey on this. By the way. I've decided to do this for 21 days! 

on Day 22. I plan on adding back grains for lunch. And beans and lentils with warm sweet potato for dinner. I will keep it vegan for the rest of June. and who knows how long after :) Then starting in July I will add back in bread/wheat. 1 portion a day.

I got this all plan