It all starts with you.
But after going at it, every day. In this life. The everyday struggles. It's so easy to lose sight. To see clearly. To remember... who we are. This world is just so judgmental, unfortunately. But we don't have to conform with it. You can chose to be you. always. This is something I have had the hardest of times with over the years. Well- all my life. Who doesn't though? I mean, yeesh. School. Etc. It's hard for kids, to know whats right- to fit in. And knowing all of that shapes us as the person we will soon grown in to be. Well, recently- I looked back in my past, and thought, geez. I was very big then. (Looking at a photo from high school.) Then I realized, I'm judging myself and it was silly. In that picture I didn't care about the way I looked as much, weight wise. I had friends, I had fun, I loved my life. I was truly happy. I don't recall ever feeling bad about being 20 pounds more than I am now. Yes I wasn't healthy- which of course wasn't good. But, thats not my point. I wasn't unhappy. But yet- here I am, now being aware of weight, from living in L.a. for almost 8 years. My mind has definitely changed. I'm an aspiring actress. Going into auditions everyday or being on sets. We are constantly being looked at to figure out whats not good about us, whats not right, what doesn't fit what their looking at.
Well I have one thing to say to all of it. F* that. Yeah. Seriously. I am ME. Asking me to be anyone else, besides myself. No can do bro. I stand up for who I am. I know myself well enough to know what is right and what isn't. And recently when I've gone into auditions, with that confidence. All is good. Not caring whether or not their looking at my baby tooth I still have when I smile. I do not care. I have red hair. I'm tall. I'm not model thin. Who cares. I am me. And thats all we have. Yes if we want to change ourselves for any reason- you can. But do it for you. Don't conform to what others 'want you' to be. Do what you want to do. for you. This is advice I've just recently given myself, finally. Finally I realize. The person I am, naturally, is beautiful. And I deserve the best. I'm worthy of a great life, as we all are. Nothing makes another person better than another. Not even if their the smartest person in the world, or on a magazine cover, or can lift 1,000 pounds. At the end of the day all we have is ourselves and our family and our loved ones, and our friends, etc. Being with them, through good times and through bad. The support of you- for them. The love from you- to the world. Is what truly matters. Give Love. Share Lov