That is the question. :) Who cares. I LOVE IT. Well, actually only a specific way. And let me give credit where credit is due. This recipe definitely came from inspiration from the first place I ever had it & fell in love. Cafe Gratitude is a vegan restaurant which is pretty much one of the best in L.A. and their kim chi, or kim chee, is the BEST. I don't care what you say- sorry. It's the best. :D So this is my take on their kim chi. Not exactly the same, but it works and it's pretty good.
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I love Sunday mornings. I'm sitting here listening to peaceful music & listening to the wind come through the window and hit the blinds. This morning has been very nice. I don't always get to see the mornings, due to going to bed ridiculously late. (Not something I'm proud of :/) However, I did go to bed late last night. But ever since I got a camera this week, there has definitely been a pep in my step. It has made me realize that sometimes we go through life 'just because'. I have felt this way at times. Constantly confused as to what it is I'm meant to do here. I love art, as you know. All aspects of it. And now after getting a camera, I have a new found inspiration that has been calling me for a while. I'm very excited about this. It makes me happy to be so excited about something again. Sometimes we go through lulls, or dry spells if you will. Where there is just nothing. I tried to paint a few weeks ago, and nothing was coming to me. I just couldn't force it. It wasn't right. I always switch up my creative outlets. Sometimes I feel moved to sing, and make you tube video song covers. Sometimes I feel the urgency to act. And sometimes I don't. Just like I think sometimes we want to eat healthy, and sometimes we don't.
But after indulging basically all this week. I started to wonder, why is this? What is it that is making me want to participate in this lifestyle, and get stuck in it.
I think sometimes were scared of success. Well, I mean I don't think it- I kinda know thats the case for myself. It's scary to think about making it. Even when we know thats what we want. So what is it that holds us back? What is it that I'm afraid of. I'm clearly only speaking to myself- not saying your like this. It's my own opinion. But I hear a lot of successful people talking about 'the good times', meaning when they were struggling. Those were hard times & learning times. But theres something kinda great about it too. I have a lot of drive & determination. Don't get me wrong. I continuously try and try. And yes, the rejection does get a little tiring and kinda sets me back sometimes. Instead of banging on the doors instead of knocking. I have started to believe & realize, that things truly do happen when their meant to. I am not ready to be successful. I think I have a few things to learn. Mainly about myself. I have a lot of confidence issues that I need to overcome. But I know that the classes & experiences I'm taking & creating, are all building me for success. I may not see it now, through the rejection of not booking certain jobs. But there is a reason. Cause when the right one comes along, it's gonna be awesome. I know it. I hope you know it too.
I just recently got the cookbook, DeliciouslyElla. She is awesome. I actually met her, so I really do know. haha. Just kidding, you can totally tell on your own if you follow her on instagram/facebook etc. I love her outlook on life. I think it's so nice when you see someone doing exactly what their supposed to be doing. And had no idea that their life would be this way. What started out as not a good thing- she had a disease and decided to try a different lifestyle out, started eating healthy and started feeling better. Her positive outlook is inspiring. I've always loved following her food pictures on instagram, so glad she made a recipe book! - I've spoke before about this, but Gabby Bernstein is another one of those favorites. She is doing exactly what she is supposed to be doing. It's so enticing to watch.
After all this talk about inspiration... I leave you with yummy photos of my recent recipe curried lentils. I still have some left overs in the fridge and can't wait to enjoy them for lunch :) I hope you follow your heart. Do whatever you know you feel calling you.
So for the curried lentils. You'll need :
THE DAILY KALE'S CURRIED LENTILS
Howdy ! I know, I know. It's been quite a bit of time since my last post- I am sorry.
You know, it's kinda interesting. I go through weird phases each day/week/month. Where I can't figure out, creatively, what I need/want to do. I even sat down yesterday in front of all my paint and an empty canvas & just couldn't do it. You just can't force things. Timing is everything. And listening to your life is important.
I am currently reading 'Spirit Junkie' by Gabrielle Bernstein & loving it. I wish I could say more about it- but I'm only in the first part of it. I can already tell this book was the perfect choice for me, with where I am in my life right now. I know we all go through different phases of being lost & confused. And I've been there for quite a bit of time it feels like. As most of you know, my main career focus is acting. I also paint & sing and sometimes model for fun. My focus currently is with commercials. My agent sends me out for commercial auditions a lot. I fight with my mind a lot, because I usually have not the best script and have to be enjoying some sort of ridiculous fast food in the scene. Or going crazy over some sort of materialistic item. If you know me personally, you know this is not my personality. If I were making fun of the commercial, sure- I'd be great. What really bothers me, is knowing if I just bit the bullet, and did the lines well, and booked the commercial, then bam! I'd have tons of money & most of my current money worries would be over. But the biggest problem is the whole giving in to it. I know I hold myself back sometimes, cause my mind is telling me to not do this to my full potential, because I don't want to be representing this brand, etc. And then I go to acting class every week, and have amazing scenes from movies, and that is surely what I want to be doing. Dialogue in the movies that motivates people to get up & do something, or see something in a new light. That is my calling.
Yesterday I watched the movie, 'You're Not You'. Look, I highly recommend it, but it comes with a warning. If you don't want to cry like a baby, then don't watch. But oh my goodness. That was a great movie. It put so many different things in prospective for me. Including the fact that I have such a hard time with these commercial auditions that are silly to me. I know Hillary Swank & Emmy Rossum both had to go through that to be where they are in this movie- but thats not it. The movie is so touching. This lady had everything you think you want, and then her ability to do things on her own was suddenly gone. Just picking up your own toothbrush. Just going to use the bathroom. Things we all take for granted. People with this disease cannot do. And to see someone as helpful as Emmy's character, helping this person, was so awesome. Sometimes I write and I don't even know why- I just feel the urge to share my experience of watching this yesterday & also my current so called life issues. And how little those issues become when you see your life in a new light.
Yesterday was my Day 4 of the detox I had created for myself. I was okay up until yesterday for some reason. My mind won the battle. Usually I'd be like, oh well, thats a wrap then. And go crazy and go back to eating everything I said I wouldn't for 30 days. But today is just a new day. Today- again is Day 4. The thing I need to learn is that the path is not some easy smooth road with no hiccups. There are gonna be stops. Things I don't want to have to do- to get to where I want. But you get stronger from overcoming them. Life is very short. Love while we can, hug while we can, embrace. It can all be taken away from us in a second, and the worst part is we don't even know when. So the time is NOW. Be fearless. Go out there & do what you know your meant to do.