Hello ! Happy October! :) Yeah, I know - I can't believe I'm writing you either. Been a while, huh? It's becoming a habit of mine to start each blog post with that- and I'm sorry for that. I must give you this excuse- hear me out ;) Of course you already know I am an actress. Please check out my website/like my FB page if you'd like :) Anywho- once you go there. You'll see all i've been up to and possibly realize why I haven't been a good Blog writer to you in the past few months. I'll hope you'll forgive me.
I know were already 3 days in to October. Hold on tight! I do NOT want this month to go fast :( It's seriously my favorite month. That and the beginning of November. Weather is a bit different than I remember 'october' being like. but I know it'll change as the month progresses. I still have no idea what I'll be for Halloween. I was thinking Jessica Rabbit. Opinions? :)
Then again at the moment we don't even know what we'll be doing. I love dressing up. It's the funnest thing to me. Thats why I have always loved October. Not to mention just all the fall things. I'm not as obsessed with pumpkin as I've seen others been lately :/ That nasty pumpkin spice latte stuff they sell at Starbucks is a little to high on demand if ya ask me! It's not healthy. I avoid sugar when I can. Especially that type. But I will think of some sort of pumpkin recipe for ya ;)
Sooo ya wanna detox, eh? I have a new detox for you. If your interested. More than likely- it's NOT what your thinking. So don't be disspointed with me. I find that this will do more good than any of those green juice detox's would anyway! This detox is the same as any in the way that, it stays true to the definition.
detoxification: the process of removing toxic substances or qualities
I have been noticing that my thoughts have been toxic. The routine/lifestyle I have been living probably since the beginning of this year- have completely gone a 360. Mainly my thoughts toward that routine. Which is the start of everything. I'm sure you all understand what I mean- I know sometimes we change- in ways we don't like, and maybe we don't even understand it. But we are in control. And if you don't like something- change it. Is more than true. We can do a 360 right back to the good route we were headed on. I used to actually want to go walking everyday outside, in the park. Once I made it a thing I had to do- or had to do so many miles, etc. Then it became not fun. And it took the experience of it out. And now I end up just not walking. Which makes me sad cause I loved it. I used to love to cook. But when I focus on calorie intake- or am busy, etc. I end up just buying take out, or food from work cause it's easy. Now that is super sad for me! When I first started this- Jan 1st of 2012, When I decided to become vegan for a month. It honestly was so ridiculously fun. I got to be sooooo creative in the kitchen. Everything I made I took pictures of and posted it- not caring how many likes it had. I realize that I used to paint so much, but once I realized I could paint and make money off of it. It changes. That beautiful hobby, thrill you get by doing something special to you - some how goes away when you change the perspective of it all. By seeing the profit. I used to just do things for me. Just cause. Not for any profit. Not to lose weight, not to please others- not to get paid. Strait up for me. Where did that go? Well with this detoxification of my thoughts. I will slowly find the way back to me. And it's going to take a while. To keep telling myself to shhhh. And just get up daily to walk- to feel the breeze, smell fresh air, etc.
I understand life gets different when you grow older. But it doesn't have to be for the bad. I see kids playing sometimes, aimlessly, laughing, running around Then you look at the parents... sitting there, miserable on their phones. I d o n' t w a n t t h i s to be M E. Or you for that matter. We can have fun too. We can be that giddy kid. But we have to follow our passions that lead us to that feeling.
I hope that you'll go on this detox with me. From now -til whenever you find yourself. I love you all. <3 wish you the best. <3 Happy October!